This Ain't No Disney

Some of you who know me may know that my favorite vacation spot over the years has been Disney. Well come January that will change when CarnalNation will be sending both Tess and I out to Vegas for the AVN - Adult Entertainment Expo 2010.

Yes, you heard that right.

The good news I alluded to the other day here was that Tess and I have teamed up with CarnalNation for the 2010 AVN Expo. I don't think I have to tell anyone how thrilled both Tess and I are to be offered this opportunity to go to Vegas, attend AVN and be part of CarnalNation.

Neither Tess or I have been to Vegas before and there seemed to be some concern on the part of CarnalNation or more specifically Shaye aka @MR_CARNAL that Tess and I might get ourselves into some trouble while out there. I believe Shaye said to me the other day that "Misbehave" was my middle name. I have no idea what would make him think that.

So I might have taken him to a male go-go bar, or his first night in NYC with us included EMT's. Or that I happen to use his lap as a chair when I drink my French martinis.

Alright so maybe he has some reason to be concerned what we might do when they let us loose in Vegas. After much discussion out at the CarnalNation offices it was decided that Tess and I would have a traveling companion (aka babysitter) with us in Vegas.

I'd like you all to meet our bodyguard/babysitter

Sort of like putting Dracula in charge of the blood bank wouldn't you say ;)

Come January when Tess and I descend on Vegas Monk will be with us sharing in our adventures. Personally I like to refer to him as arm candy and with those magic hands of his he gives one hell of a foot rub.

We have some very exciting news that came about as a result of our time spent with Shaye during his recent weekend in New York City which we will be announcing while we are out in Vegas. You'll be able to follow along with Tess and I as we blog, Facebook and twitter our way across the Internet to Vegas and AVN.

As they say in blogland.........

What happens in Vegas...... ends up all over the Internet.

Thank you Theresa and John for giving us this opportunity!

P.S. Does anyone know if they have roller coasters in Vegas?

What's New

I've had a busy few weeks and find myself still trying to catch my breath. Today I head up to Boston with Tess to join Princess Kali and Megan for a slumber party at the Kink Academy dungeon. This should be quite an interesting adventure for us from some of the things I've heard Kali has planned. Along with the fact I've never been in a dungeon before. My twitpics today should be quite interesting.

I met Kali back in September at the opening of The Center for Sexual Pleasure and Health. After the opening several of us went out to dinner that evening and I found myself sitting across from a professional domme. We chatted about D/s relationships, kink and her new site Kink Academy. I fell in love with her over dinner. We had so many of the same viewpoints about sex, D/s and kink.

Kali ended up sending me a membership to her site to look at when I told her of my history and being new to this world of D/s and kink.

I loved it!

Here was a place where I could get straightforward information for someone like me who was so new to it all.

I saw Kali again a few weeks ago in New York City for the calendar release party and we ended up making plans for a slumber party. Which leads me to today's adventure with Tess. I hear there is also going to be a detour to the njoy-plex and a visit with Greg. Did I mention I am now the proud owner of the njoy Eleven?

I've had an amazing couple of weeks in my life. Some opportunities have opened up for me that I am still trying to get adjusted to. The other night I attended In The Flesh for their four year anniversary and the NYC Sex Blogger calendar night with a few of the models reading. It was great to see friends and tell them some of my news. The hugs, congratulations and toasts I received along with a few text messages made that night very special for me.

Look for a post from me with my big news on Monday or Tuesday and if you want to know what goes on at a dungeon sleepover follow me on twitter.

Look Mom! I Have My Own CarnalNation Button!

Last week at the NYC Sex Bloggers Calendar release party I received several gifts including an njoy Eleven Wooofuckinghooo!!!!!

My second favorite gift I received was the above button from @MR_CARNAL of CarnalNation which I wore the entire weekend including on my CarnalNation shirt at breakfast. How many people get a button of their very own?

I'm thinking at this point there should be an entire line of "DIVA" wear to go with this. Low cut shirts that amply display cleavage along with short skirts. Think of Juicy with DIVA in large letters spread across my ass. What a sight that would be. Something to discuss with MR_CARNAL next time I see him. That is if we didn't scare him away after his time spent with us last weekend.

I am also hosting the Feminist Carnival of Sexual Freedom and Autonomy this month and the theme I have chosen is Visions of Sexual Freedom to correspond with the theme of the new 2010 calendar.

Please submit your posts to me by no later than November 19th to be published on the 20th.

Hanging Around On A Saturday

When I first stumbled across the sex blog world in what now seems almost an eternity ago, along with all the hot sexy writing I also came across something else that was not only new but sparked my interest.

Bondage. Not just any bondage either.

I came across photos of women who were being what I would come to learn was referred to as Suspended.

As I looked at these pictures I was in amazement of how they made me feel and the one thing I wanted more than anything was to experience that feeling of being totally free, putting all my trust in someone else and letting myself go. For me it was freedom in bondage.

But there was only one small problem. I lead this quiet simple life and knew of noone who had ever experienced this let alone knew how to do it.

Yeah, I know. Can you believe that was only a short two years ago.

This past weekend was pretty fucking amazing. Tess and I threw a party that I am still in somewhat of a shock that we did it. But that is for another post. One of the most amazing things this weekend was that I finally had my dream of being suspended come true and experiencing all those feelings I had been wanting to feel for so long.

I must say I am luckiest Diva in the world that I happen to know Monk and he just happened to want to come to our party. We had originally planned to do it as a demonstration during the party but the crowd was way too large so on Saturday afternoon after his class and with a few of my friends watching I put my trust in Monk, let go and was finally suspended.

This was also one of the first times I can remember in I don't know how long that I wanted something for myself and I asked for it. For so many years my only concern was to make everyone else happy until I made myself crazy.

This was a jam packed weekend for me and there were so many people I wanted to meet and spend time with but at times it was actually a little overwhelming and I needed my space. My time in a smaller quieter setting to catch my breath and regroup. In the past I would not have taken that time for myself and instead worried about everyone else and given all of my time to them to the point of being unhappy.

As I spend this week processing all of this I remember back to seeing those original suspension photos, my desire for it and the person I was at that time knowing that I would never have asked someone for it.

It is just past two years on my blog and I see the growth I have made over this past year. I can finally see and accept the strong woman I've become.

Below are a few of the photos Stacie Joy took of me during it. I'm a bit sad that some of the best ones from that day that were sent to me I can't share here. They were the ones that showed the smile on my face and my happiness this past weekend.

Thanks Monk for giving me this opportunity.

Happy Blog-A-Birthday Diva

photo by Stacey Joy

Yesterday was my two year Blog-A-Birthday. If you follow me on twitter you'll already know I was tied up this weekend with the NYC Sex Bloggers Calendar release party and all the events surrounding it. What better Blog-A-Birthday gift to receive than the Njoy Eleven. This toy is fucking amazing!

I want to thank this amazing CommUNITY that I have found for all their love, support and friendships. Two years ago I met my friend Tess and she encouraged me to blog. Even naming my blog for me. That seems like such a lifetime ago now as I look back to it.

Over the two years we've been through a lot and what stands out most to me is all the laughter in my life now. This weekend I smiled and laughed more than I had in those years leading up to becoming Diva. So I'll thank Tess once again for seeing in me the woman I could be when I was too lost to see it myself.

I have a lot a big changes coming over the next year for me and I have so much to write about this past weekend but I am operating on only ten hours sleep in three nights so I will leave with this song that for some reason I woke up with stuck in my head.

What I Have Learned

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This week's Ropecast features Tess and I talking about the NYC Sex Bloggers Calendar and Sex Work Awareness.

I was pleasantly surprised when I heard myself and Tess talking with Gray on his podcast this week. It finally dawned on me all that I have learned over this past year since that first email exchange between Audacia and I last fall.

At the time of that email the words "sex worker" were new to me along with the online world of sex blogs. Dacia showed amazing patience that helped me to not only understand but also to educate me.

And then a funny thing happened along the way of that.....

I became an ally for sex workers and sex worker rights. Without realizing it along the way I picked up talking points, met many in other sex worker organizations and most of all I listened and learned.

I might not have said it all completely best in this podcast with Tess and there is the small argument of her using the raffle prizes before the party but I am better able to speak now on this subject than I was a year ago.

I owe that to Dacia and all the other members of Sex Work Awareness who helped me to understand and learn the issues facing sex workers. The NYC Sex Bloggers Calendar profits go to fund Speak Up! which trains sex workers to make their own media, have their own talking points and work to change the way sex workers are portrayed in the mainstream media.

Tess and I are only two people but we are two more people who understand and (hopefully) spoke correctly regarding the issues flacing sex workers. When I watch any program on television today I see the slant with how sex workers are portrayed. The statements of rescuing them and I think how do we reach a wider audience to educate them that not all sex workers are victims nor are they trafficked. It feels like such an overwhelming task but as I said last December it starts with each individual person that you can educate with the truth and help to better understand.

I've had some amazing support and success with the calendar this year. There are so many to thank for that but I think what is going to be the best way to thank all our sponsors, supporters and friends will be with each small stride we make in removing the stigma from sex work.

It all started out as a simple podcast recording........

and ended up like this....

Rope by Graydancer

and this....

Rope by Graydancer

and this.....

Yes that's him. Twisted Monk

(Monk's scarf you see hanging over my face that he used as a blindfold)

Last but not least this......

I have a lot I want to write about this night and my experience being tied up by not one but two rope masters. Unfortunately I have this party......in a few weeks.....that I am working on these days. You might have seen me mention it on twitter. In the meantime you can read Tess's version of our night. (and see her tits)

I do want to thank Graydancer for inviting me up to the GRUE meet and greet so that Tess and I could record a podcast with him and talk about the 2010 NYC Sex Blogger Calendar.

Thanks Gray for as always your overwhelming continued support within this CommUNITY.

I also want to thank both Gray and Monk for giving me an amazing night of memories. The only problem is that now I am totally spoiled and don't know how I will ever find anyone to match that rope experience.

But we shall see...........